I feel like I spend too much time "going through the motions" and not enough time really engaging with life.
I feel like it's wrong (for me; not my place to judge what's right or wrong for you) to simply go through the motions of life without making some sort of effort to cultivate a spiritual awareness and engagement; a sense of gratefulness.
On the other hand, I think it's impossible to "force" true engagement with the spirit; it needs to arise, and our job is to commit to a disciplined practice of inviting it, which often entails time spent going through the motions.
How do I reconcile this? Is there ever any answer other than: keep trying? Any advice?